the infatuation...

now,i've always had an open book kinda structure,everybody knew what's goin' on inside me.i give away everything out of my chirpy lips even on slghtest provocation.so everybody knew it,except the person i had a crush on.nobody,would deny,it's the most beautiful n still the most dificult feeling to deal with.i was no exception.there was a girl,i found her beautiful but perhaps i was more infatuated by the dynamism n by the fact that at that time i found that she was better than me, more confident than me,n i ended up in infatuation( u can't help it).but my strange attitude was that i always felt i shud develop a 'bad boy' feeling in her,i was too girl shy,i preferred fighting with her.rather now i think i din develop any feelin' in her at all,neither good nor bad.i found nothing good enough in me to say my feelings to her(rather i know there was nothing good at all). so it was a safer method to completely clear any possibilty....chat gaya ab baki bad mein