manish kushwaha..

friendship has a meaning now, n perhaps this person has a lot to do with it for me.he was and is an intelligent person, several times i took him for granted.he told me there are few 'friends' only n what i used to reply, 'see i want everybody to like me,i know that u like me so i take u for granted now n want others as frnds to have the fun',he was a persn evry boy n gilrl used to share their infatuations with,he was intelligent,had answer to evry feeling n perhaps people loved crying their pains out in front of him.perhaps still now many of his friends do so.he's a trap for me.i hated him for 'a tight slap' n perhaps few other things,he was a martinet, i was a freewheeler, he hated abuses and slangs,i couldn't do without them.still we were friends at one point of time,i don't know why.there may b one reason,perhaps at that time he was the listener of my 'infatuation' feelings, n i needed to tell.but,anyhow i developed a love for this person (thus i say i still can't differentiate love frm frndshp).the time he envied me i tried to do everything opposite n he retaliated too.but i was hurt everyday,cudn't bear it anymore,so i said i want the companionship back,rather i begged.perhaps that's why i still beg to save relations,i have a towering ego,but that really falls at last in most cases.that's my weaknesss,'m proud of it now.