if anybody has watched that movie the title will not be difficult to get ,n for those who din' i recommend watching it.life for me till now has been as if it has been programmed the way it should be, i believe in making one's own destiny but this play of fortune has always played better games with me to prove that the destiny already written is perhaps a better decision maker than myself.when i sat fr the medical entrance exams i was confident of getting selected, i got selected in my first exam itself but could not get any good college, i left all,then in the second exam which was on a completely alien pattern to me, i prepared in around 20 days fr it, n i got a rank in state which was not good enough n with heavy heart i started preparing that was when i started learning what's exactly called toiling, i was never a kind who could sit fr hours with book , i needed peripherals all the time ,comp television and all fun stuff always, i take time out of them to study, but fortune makes it somehow, like i started preparing late after these exams to study fr next yr, after 2-3 months of vigorous studies(vigorous fr me), there was a news that the second result i passed in wud have a new counselling, i thought i won't get better colleges there, decided not to go there , then suddenly my uncle who was going to the same place forced me to go, with all resentment i went there and by shear good luck i got a seat(at that time i considered it a bad luck),i got a place which in my opinion was too bad, then after getting admission in the med. college also i got detained after much hustle and bustle due to my late admission in the college, now though i performed well in exams i was never given any certificate or so(but really i was not even craving for it anyways, i was always happy with what i got till tis time), i again sat fr one entrance and got a good rank there even after not studying for months this time. now i had to decide to leave for a better(in my opinion at that time) medical college or remain here in all problems, after all packing and all something i don' know what struck my mind that just a night before leaving i quited, i decided to remain here with all my problems,then it all passed well with all good friends and a VERY COOPERATIVE AND LOVELY BATCH OF MINE(perhaps they may not consider me that) ad i passed out and in my first attempt with most of my batch performing well i also got selected in for the master's degree that's in the next post, so where's the Truman show, it goes like this:
the first decision of choosing to go to counselling got me a seat.
the second decision to leave the college which many considered better was the best one fr this college was one of the few colleges in nation with a very good passing rate and where you get a lot of time to study n also because u were given a single seated room in the second year, in most colleges such facilities are not available and those who are medicos in this country are well aware with the problems of sharing rooms.
the same decision above turned out to be very good for my post graduate entrance which is one of the few toughest examinatins in the country.since the college was just okay u need not do a lot of work u got a lot of time to study and u get selected easily as theory is more important in all entrance exams(though that's the weakness of the system) and it was always easier to study in a single seater.
my fate also put me in the detained batch, in some ways it also turned out to be very good 'coz now nobody expected u'l do the general regular things a regular student has to do, so u r more free, remain at ur room study or roam about and enjoy with friends (i did the latter more), so always lesser pressure, also i got to understand that there's no way a difference between a so called topper and so called mediocres, all are students with almost same capabilities in different aspects, the number game unfortunately turns out to be a poor play.
so that's the way i see the things, may be 'm overestimating the fortune play but the catch is that still now when i'm selected i've got a rank which automatically(mostly) puts a pressure on the student to follow a trend and take a specific branch, it's as if i have been put to take just one. now since fortune has always made better decisions and they in long term have benefitted me i've started believing that i should take what it gives without any question. it is like the truman's show, all has alreday been decided , what i can do is just make the most out of my present, n try not hurt anybody n try to be as happy as possible.
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