Motive.....

how is the life going by cannot be commented at present, only a few observations of the behaviour of life can predict what's going on inside it.Nobody, including me, can say that 'm nowadays completely amotivated, but one observation is that i seem to waste lots and lots of time just sitting in front of comp or just thinking anything without thinking anything. it appears that 'm currently fulfilling my basic drives rather than motivated to do what i want to do, perhaps it's so 'coz i have'nt really self actualized myself as to what'l give me satisfaction. i seem to be stuck at the 'security level' of hierarchy of needs. truly speaking only two paths seem to be visible, one is that of continuing amotivated or do some sort of painful self-destruction where the pain is lovable.Nobody stops me from doing whatever i want to, but the real question is when u feel so fulfilled; what will u feel the void for, and the irony is; that the so called feeling of fulfillment also does not bring satisfaction.Specifically i never feel frustated, but i truly feel amotivated..nobody can push me.. coz a push is not what i need.