secrets..

The idea of giving a title to each post that too as a punch line really looks cliched but can't help for this one, as i have to remember it always. Generally in this otherwise useless blog I've put a lot of material which at times I feel I should delete, but then, since it has been a reflection of what I thought at different points of time, I also think the deletion as an act of cowardice due to the conflict with my current views, thus, till now I've been keeping it.
It's almost two years now since I've written anything on it. In the starting of my blog somewhere I'd mentioned that 'm an open book. To some people closer to me it may still seem so, but , everything has drastically changed in past 3 years, I would say that life has given me certain experiences which I've always cherished, though, in keeping with my neurotic tendencies to seek pleasure in pain those experiences have been more or less painful, yet, the reserve I have; has been helped me come out of all that pain or at least to live with it. In the course of my whole journey from MBBS till now I've turned quieter, more reserved and sometimes more harsh. Over the years I have been through things and situations which I would hardly like to discuss with anybody in detail, even with my closest ones. I do not like generalisations but 'm quite sure that as we progress in age our secrets keep increasing and thus a person becomes more concerned with his private life, however, the difference is that not all people become more reserve, not all people introspect in their own deficiencies which led to some things to be kept as "secrets" and not all think of them as a burden they'll have to carry all alone. Till now I'used to think that only I'm keeping them but now started realizing that even life's keeping them from me, it'l be too early to predict but it will certainly have a role in my life further ,though, i don't know how, 'coz now i don't think that 'm deciding the course of my life, it's just driven by untold truths by me and unfolding truths from life let's see what's the next one..